Friday, March 2, 2007
Last saturday went out with my friends for dinner, a drink and movie. Stayed over at Dear house and when I reached his house at 3+am realised Dear and his Daddy both at home yet. Come to think that his Mummy must be feeling bored the whole day since nobody accompany her. Actually I wanted to accompany her but think my sms to my Dear did not went through untill at night so he didnt help me to arrange with his Mummy.
She is a nice Mummy though sometimes a little naggy. But which Mummy in the world dont nag. She always shared her problems with me and I am always ready to be her listening ear. Probably because she got no daughter thats why I know and sense that she dotes on me and treat me good. I wanted to tell her that she can call me on weekends if she need someone to accompany her but I havent do so. A bit pai seh though I am close to her.
My Dear edited his friender profile today, he said if possible he want to leave this place for good then so that he wouldnt hurt anyone. If he leaves I will leave too. Theres no point for me to stay if he isn't around. Life would be no meaning. I'm serious. At times I really thought of leaving for good then he wouldnt be bothered woulnt be vex. If I am really not around he can be with her and he wouldnt have this kind of thinking anymore. Knowing how he feels I felt so sad, once again I teared because it hurts me to see him having this kind of thinking. Why aren't we the same happy couple we used to be? Is it worth it because of lsy? If one fine day, I'm gone I guess you will know the reason why.
I have loads of things to tell you. At times you may see or think that I looks ok but deep in me I'm sobbing terribly. I'm actually crying everyday escpecially when I thought of you. The love I had for you is really deep, do you know? I even feel that I am a burden to you and bringing you nothing but worries. I feel so screw up every now and then. Life sucks now. I feel so stress up, feel that everything is on top of me and its heavy and I am almost tumbling down.
Things could have been easier if you are willing to give her up. Could you please give it a good thought. And we could be like the past where we share all the happy moments.
signing off,
Na
9:07 AM
