Monday, April 16, 2007
It has been a long time since I last post, many things had happened.
We was back from hong kong on 31 March 2007 (Sat).
On sun, he wanted to go out. I stopped him and he wasnt happy.
I was worried he might go find her.
09/04/2007 he was online, I asked him if he is still angry, he said dont know and he said he dont like me to stop him from going out. I explained the reason. But he said he cannot give me any chances and cannot forgive me. I cried, cried in the office and he said let him consider and he will tell me tues (10/04/2007).
10/04/2007, he smsed, he said he had think and he really cant give me the chance.
Many things was said and he suggested we seperate for a period of time. I agreed cos I dont want to force him and want him to cool down. I was in office and again I cried. I cant carry on. I cant. I cant live without him. Its all true love for him.
16/04/2007
I am at home now, no mood for work.
Actually for the whole last week everyday I was late.
And since 09/04/2007 I had been crying everyday. Before sleep I cry, wake up cry, lie on the bed cry, even now blogging also cry. I love him yes I do, he is the only guy that I had love so deeply. I cant live my life without him. I really cant.
My family members know something wasnt right, they asked me but I refused to say.
My Mother kept asking kept talking to me but I ignored her. I know she is concern.
Don I really love you, its true love, a love that began 9 years ago and untill now its still increasing and never will decrease. I miss you so much, its been a week since I last saw you. Hows your life? What are you doing? Did I ever came into your mind?
Each time I think,
I cry, cried terribly.
I am not strong at all.
I am weak, super weak.
I am collasping.
Do you know that?
Please come back to me.
10:59 AM
