Monday, May 21, 2007
Hvnt blog for a long long time..mood is not there..& yes i m still waiting..
Last sunday, had a wonderful dream, i shall not talk about its details since gd dream arent allow to say out..but i wish i can stay in the dream forever..given a choice i would rather not wake up..
Was asking myself for the past few days, wat is life?..life suckz..life is torturing without u..wat is the purpose of living?..at this moment i really dunno..
Why did all these hv to happen to me?
Why arent these all a dream?
Why do i always end up crying?
Why do i always end up crying alone?
Why do i always end up crying in the middle of the night?
Why am i always having sleepless nights?
Why do i always wake up in the middle of the night?
Why do i always end up frustrated and vent it on my Mummy?
Why am i the one to suffer?
Why so many why..its all bcos of i love him..
i only wanna lead a happy life with him, is it so difficult?..a life which we will love each other..treasure each other..holding each other hands untill we turn old..
life is already so stressful..with work to worry..family to worry..all these i can tk it but i lost to "love"..its making me crazy..making me insane..making me wanna end my life..
i hate myself for being around in this world..let me vanish for good..
without him there is nothing worth living for..
wld u b der 2 love 2 b wif me..
wld u swear tat ur luv is always true..
wld u say tat u always b the 1 2 tk my breath away..
11:45 PM
