Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Today was his last paper for his diploma course. In the past I would be happy for but now I've got this mix feeling in me.
knowing that he will have more time for that gal makes me felt so sad. finishing his exams means in a week or two he would be coming back to office for work and also definately he will have the time to think it through which gal he would choose. should I ask him the question? seriously I'm afraid of the answer. I know I am actually running away from it but the thought of leaving someone that you love so dearly is really super painful.
Thinking back the friendster comments really hurt me deep enough. I dont know how to face his cousins. makes me feel like just deleting my friendster account.
Nowadays often dreamt of him. I really miss him and always have the idea of hugging him and cry out all I want and after that everything will be solve. I cant live my life without him just loves him too much...
How can a gal be so cruel to snatch him away? Didnt she think of that guy current gf? she knew he has got a gf and moreover she knew the guy current gf, how can she do that? I cant imagine really cant. its so bad and I swear I can never do this to anyone.
My birthday 15/09 is coming soon and I can say that for the past 23 birthdays I had this is the most terrible pre-birthday feeling I had cos I dont know would he still be the one celebrating for me?
Pls never leave me.............................I cant move on without you
8:25 PM
