Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Day 43 (17/10/2007) Without Don Lim
Couldnt sleep yesterday..he was in my mind throughout..the moment I close my eyes its him..when I open up my eyes its still him..haiz..only manage to fall asleep at 4+am..after falling asleep I had dream..dreamt about him..was tat sleeping I doubt so..
I told myself I will nve log into friendster again..tats because I know I will be affected and my face will show all the unhappiness I had..I dun want my facial expression to tell him tat I'm sad cos by doing so we cannot improve..
Nwadays I loves tue wed thur cos its when I would be able to see him..hv lunch with him..communicate with him and also a chance for me to glaze at him untill I'm totally lose in his world..I just loves him more and more each day..and the fact tat I will be there for him whenever he need me..24/7..
2day went for lunch with him his Mummy & his Auntie..didnt ate much and I was watching him eat..aww I miss seeing him eat too..I shed 2 drops of tear but I looked away cos I didnt 1 him 2 see it..it just hurt me so much..
I miss everything and most importantly I loves him so much..I wanna be with him..I wanna spend the rest of my life with him..
My dvd player against me too..but I bought a new 1 with him 2day..I'll treasure this dvd player..tink I'm nut..haiz..
I'm still upset and yet I'm also tired by those acting I had to do each day..
I miss the kisses we had..
11:20 PM
