Thursday, May 15, 2008
Had a talk with him through msn on tue nite...
well we didnt really rake up last sat incident...
He was saying that I'm tinking too much and yes I believe I am...
staying in my current workplace somehw or rather affected me...like I say I've phobia...phobia naturally brings about negative thinking which also somwhw or rather affected the relation between me & Alex...
He wants me to resign from my current workplace so that the two of us can go further together...I was thinking bout it during our msn conversation and I think I shld not stay on...I'm giving myself till next year cos I wanna complete my stupid p.c. course first before I leave for another job...
From the conversation I know he's serious bout our r/s...
nobody is perfect and we both forgive and forget each other...
emm but still I didnt forget what happen on last sat...
cos putting myself in his position I know what would come first for me...
I'm not saying that frens are not important but when I compare it between a dinner with bf's family and going clubbing with frens definately I think bf's family dinner comes first...cos we can club anytime and I will explain to my frens and I believe they will understand...
whatever it is everything just show hw important I am to him when being compared...
still I decide to forgive n forget...
10:27 AM
Monday, May 12, 2008
Cobweb on my blog I guess...but anyway life still goes on for me...
woke up early on sat morning...prepare sushi and went out at 1+pm to meet him for window shopping...he's just done with his exam and I'm fully aware of hw tired he is...coincidently my family's having mother's day dinner on this same day and I told him if he's tired he can choose not to join us...but still he decided to join...
reached dinner place at 8+pm and yet the food are not ready yet despite my family placed the order an hour ago...so we decide to change location cos no point waiting for so long and the other table who came later are served with their food first...wth
in my sis car he said "I'm actually late cos I'm meeting my frens at zouk and tics get sold out very early" of cos my sis would ask "that means you need to go off now?"...he said "YA"...shocked!!!...at that very moment I really felt the unimportance of me...his frens and clubbing is more important than me???...I mean its not that I dun allow him to go club and I know he needs to release stress after his exam but bcos I felt that its not very nice to leave inbetween...
I'm still not feeling good in me now cos what happened already showed what is important and what comes first...
I'm nve gonna be in his top 3 list...
11:11 AM
